Day 174: Stuck On Time

I’m already more than half way through the first ‘proper’ week off at home in what seems like forever (certainly in 2012) and I’m finding it a little odd.

On the one hand, I feel the unmistakable urge to crash out – to play as much ‘FIFA 12’ as I like, to watch as many thoroughly non-beneficial episodes of Spider-Man on Netflix as I like (the good one from the 1990s, I’ve watched at least two seasons this week) and really, do exactly whatever I feel…like. But then, resting on the other hand is the dull nagging at my conscience to do something beneficial with the time. I’m knee-deep in an assignment for my degree and I’ve got some music that I agreed to compose for a good friend of mine. What do I do?!

I’ll be really honest with you. I’m torn.

I get that holidays are meant to be relaxing, but does that mean they shouldn’t be beneficial? Maybe by doing nothing I’m ensuring I’m revitalised for the next ‘big push’ to Christmas – that is beneficial isn’t it? Or is the time off of work simply a time to focus on non-work type things? As part of my studies today, I came across this passage from a book called “How to Live on 24 Hours a Day” by Arnold Bennett:

“In the realm of time there is no aristocracy of wealth, and no aristocracy of intellect. Genius is never rewarded by even an extra hour a day. And there is no punishment. Waste your infinitely precious commodity as much as you will, and the supply will never be withheld from you. No mysterious power will say:–“This man is a fool, if not a knave. He does not deserve time; he shall be cut off at the meter.” It is more certain than consols, and payment of income is not affected by Sundays. Moreover, you cannot draw on the future. Impossible to get into debt! You can only waste the passing moment. You cannot waste to-morrow; it is kept for you. You cannot waste the next hour; it is kept for you.” (emphasis added)

Aside from it being fantastically well written, the last few sentences (highlighted) really confused the issue far more for me.

Argument One:

You can only waste the passing moment. This life is here to be lived. Enjoy your break, enjoy your rest, work when it’s time to work. You will still have the same amount of time tomorrow!

Argument Two:

You’re wasting the passing moment! Why are you wasting a valuable passing moment?! You might have the same amount of time tomorrow but you only have this moment once! Make it count!

I’m well and truly stuck here. How do I make the best use of my time?!


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