Last night, I was extremely blessed by two of my favourite people in the world who took me out to dinner for my birthday (which is tomorrow, by the way!). I am so grateful for them both, but if I’m completely honest, I was a bit miserable. Having returned from a fantastic few days in Estonia and back to reality, for the first time in a while I felt totally lost. It happens every so often; I question my motives, my achievements, my direction, my choices. I wonder if I’m doing all that God has called me to do, or whether I’m just coasting. Last night, my two best friends took me out for dinner and listened patiently while I confessed my worries and concerns.
Today, determined to let the previous night’s conversations be a blip rather than a regular occurrence, I arrived at church an hour early and spent some time reading the Bible. I don’t do that anywhere near often enough, so today was me addressing that. We were gathering around 50 of our creative team members today to be filled with vision, inspiration and practical direction and were joined by Life Church’s Jock James for the day. It was exactly what I needed to hear.
It’s amazing how God guides you in the most incredible way when you make a conscious decision to fix your eyes on Him. I’ve been so concerned with my own worries that I was beginning to lose God in all of it – and yet, the moment I chose to put all of that aside, there He was, guiding me. Today I was spiritually refuelled…and I’m extremely grateful for it! I can’t wait for this next season!